I'm amanda. i play tuba and im on the CYMBAL LINE. YES.
marching band and drumline<3
i like to write about my life but that doesn't mean it holds meaning. just because you believe in something doesn't make it true.
I like to look at trees when i have my glasses on because the leaves make up individual pieces of a whole instead of just a blob of uncertainty that my life has tragically become.
"what makes you think i'm going away?"
"Amanda, since the first day i met you you've been dying to get out of here."
its like the ache in my chest that my heart didnt invite."
"i know the worlds a broken bone, but melt your headaches call it home."
"I'm narcissistic, I'm pessimistic, I'm obsessive, I'm insecure, and i am so afraid of intimacy that every one of my relationships is a journey of self sabotage that inevitably ends in a black vacuum of shattered expectations and despair."